mixed signals?
they suck.
like hella bad...you never really know what they want
you know? blahhh



anyway
tomorrow im going with lauren to help her pick out accessories for homecoming
and then friday
i cant decide whether to do fright fest
or chill with lyndsey all weekend...i mean, it is her birthday and all
i just dont know.
i bet if i didnt go to fright fest, i could get the moneyy my parents would use for it
then it could go to saturday...which is shopping in berkeley :)



i just wanna talk to you.
i wanna figure out whats going on
where all this stuff between us stands
this is ridiculous
its like...what are you thinking? how does your mind work?
why cant you accept me and see through my wrongs
i see you through yours
and who knows. maybe you could change all this.
all this...all this mess. this mess of me!
sometimes, i really am a mess
ive finally learned to accept myself, and now the big acceptance is over
i made it
and maybe it will get easier

but then again...maybe it will get harder.
i dont know how i did it, but if i can accept myself
i would hope that almost anyone could accept me...
it takes a lot to finally realize how much you mean
and if anyone told me that they finally figured out how to accept themselves,
i would accept them reguardless
but maybe thats just me and im just being self centered or something

but thats what i feel like
and im proud of myself :)