urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:butt0n11butt0n11butt0n11butt0n112008-10-23T05:12:54Zurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:butt0n11:935im so confused2008-10-23T05:12:54Z2008-10-23T05:12:54Zmixed signals?<br />they suck.<br />like hella bad...you never really know what they want<br />you know? blahhh<br /><br /><br /><br />anyway<br />tomorrow im going with lauren to help her pick out accessories for homecoming<br />and then friday<br />i cant decide whether to do fright fest<br />or chill with lyndsey all weekend...i mean, it is her birthday and all<br />i just dont know.<br />i bet if i didnt go to fright fest, i could get the moneyy my parents would use for it<br />then it could go to saturday...which is shopping in berkeley :)<br /><br /><br /><br />i just wanna talk to you.<br />i wanna figure out whats going on<br />where all this stuff between us stands<br />this is ridiculous<br />its like...what are you thinking? how does your mind work?<br />why cant you accept me and see through my wrongs<br />i see you through yours<br />and who knows. maybe you could change all this.<br />all this...all this mess. this mess of me!<br />sometimes, i really am a mess<br />ive finally learned to accept myself, and now the big acceptance is over<br />i made it<br />and maybe it will get easier<br /><br />but then again...maybe it will get harder.<br />i dont know how i did it, but if i can accept myself<br />i would hope that almost anyone could accept me...<br />it takes a lot to finally realize how much you mean<br />and if anyone told me that they finally figured out how to accept themselves,<br />i would accept them reguardless<br />but maybe thats just me and im just being self centered or something<br /><br />but thats what i feel like<br />and im proud of myself :)